i wish i could paint

i wish i could paint
take a canvas,
smear your words on it
and paint
when words are lacking
when the heart overflows
when the pain is difficult to bear
i wish i could put some paint on my fingers
and paint you
on a canvas
paint what the mirror chooses to hide

instead of scribbling away
i wish i could paint what i feel
instead of lying in a broken heap
i wish i could whirl in a trance

do not wish, you whisper
wishes come a dime a dozen
pray fight and heal
o stranger from the mirror
pray fight and heal